They will have lunch in the restaurant she likes.
chief embraces room, he told her she did not come for a long time, she replies with a slight smile, the end of the summer without a doubt, this is not so long, it takes her coat and led to their table and asked of him, she said, oh, okay, she talks a bit more with the same smile.
He could not say why he is embarrassed, a little, she has taken there, he feels the looks that linger on it, on them, they are very young, no doubt, and they are almost looks that accuse them of this youth, slight smile still on his face. She orders an appetizer, the server kisses, sorry it did not come, long time.
He says she looks happy, or perhaps just very calm, she looks out the river and the sky so blue, she said it's like there, the winters are very cold but with that sky there, very cold weather like this blue is rather rare here, you're lucky for being here now. The coming days it is not known, it will probably be as before, if we no longer distinguish gray sky cobblestones. We do not know if it is morning or evening already.
He looks at the card, he looks at her, she seems to have chosen already, he tries to choose, but he feels that it's almost indecent, the card, the restaurant, he said with a chuckle , it's weird to eat here, I mean, with the crisis, and everything, finally, if you think, by contrast, I mean, she said oh, with a look a little upset, or very loose, it do not know, he would not say that, anyway, he immediately regretted having said so, but this is casually that ails,-as if she was, somehow, out of reach, and he says it is, really, out of reach. She drinks
always looking outside, as in alcohol consumption sweet, in the light. He remembers a few months earlier, his haggard face, without makeup, she wore a shapeless thing, it seemed there to be severed, the body-inflated like a wound. Then she wept, she began to cry, suddenly, silently, it meant nothing, he insisted she speaks, but she did not. He was so destitute that he would not feel able to be more so, if this is now, He does not understand.
When inputs arrive, he asks if they are celebrating something, so this meal is not an opportunity for something-which escapes him, but that he did not say she ordered the foie gras Gingerbread with a macaroon with fig emulsion something a compote of other things, she said, I do not see why we need to celebrate something.
She wears a black dress-and slightly tanned skin, he does not understand that it can be, with the winter, he feels it is again in the summer, with more distance Perhaps even his body very thin, almost fragile, as relieved of any trace of previous months,-as if nothing had ever happened. She probably has hair shorter, clearer, he does not know very well, they frame, smooth, his face, bathed in a kind of cold light, almost unbearable.
At some point, he noticed his shoes, and he developed malaise, almost panic - clearly it had not yet this morning when he was home, they probably bought them meantime. He does not understand, she has already bought another pair of baby something he thought yesterday or so before yesterday, at the latest, he does not understand why she needed to buy today, and it frightens him vaguely, even if he tries to argue, there is nothing to be scared, amused, perhaps, or when surprised, but can not. He felt that he understood why she had bought shoes yet, he would understand why it had taken him there, why she was crying the last time he saw her, why she was so emotionless now, as if nothing had ever happened.
He said it was sad to leave soon, she says it's not worth it, there is this icy sun outside these winter days with the sun, he is this lunch in this restaurant, it is now, and until we do not know. You can never know, so it's not worth it.
They eat slowly, it would engulf everything, so it's over, absorbed, whether it is safe at least, there is nothing after, but he eats it slowly, as if they never gonna leave this restaurant, this time, this city together. He already sees that insists on paying the bill, and he who refuses, who is terrified at the note, she still insists, paying or not paying, and then embrace that may or did 'embraces not, with a slight smile, and goes. He is further away the river ice with the sun in her hair.
He asks, why you like that, he can not help it, she said that as how he insists, like that. She has a slight smile, he feels, in that smile, to have lost already, he asked again, his face clear his hair so thin that his body broken and his eyes almost laughing at times with light inside, he says he lost, again, it always has been, for him, lost.
She said, oh you know. I stopped being depressed, it bored me.
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